Almost had draw with stockfish 8 and with stockfish 10

I almost had draw with Stockfish 8, could make it easily if not that laziness or something that disturbes my while game

Cause of that harmful activity in my Mind, I can't focus on somple things, but complex things getting me more convinient sometimes. I think I will focus in a way to make a real draw with him,if I supress that thing in my Mind. It would be and obvious easy draw if I was not that harsh or don't know why I can't focus on thinking on a simple move long enough.
And this game I ve played on Pc with stockfish 509, making most moves but 3 times I ve used a Tips from engine itself
also I use sometimes reflexively attitude as I fight these machines with humans in a game like that